Windsor emailed me to say he has written a song for me. 3 years and now when I want nothing more but to distance myself from him and he writes a song. I don't even know if I want to hear it b/c what if it doesn't say what I want to hear, do I even know what I want to hear? Yeah I do. Do I expect to hear what I want, no I don't. And what if by some slim chance it does, I don't know if I want to love him anymore. Why is it that when I finally make an attempt to get over him he does something that confuses my heart? I'm confused enough already.
I feel alone and sad, not the way I thought I'd feel when a boy I love writes a song for me.
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